I do not know what to post, but was forced to do so. So here I am, writing straight from what's on my mind.
My life sucks. I've finally come to terms and agree that the only reason I'm here is to entertain and make the people around me happy. But by doing so, I sacrificed my happiness for theirs. Cool isn't it. say all kind of shit you want, but that's me. I like to make the people around me happy, especially my friends even though it may take my happiness away. To see them going home happy is what i will do.
People say i'm like to think about people way too much. By doing that, who, in return, will do the favour for me? They got a point there. And I will answer them , 'They will think of me whenever their free, coz i don't care weather you think about me or fuck care."
YEs, I'm writing bullshit stuffs now. Time check is 3:33am. date is 7 march 2010. I proudly declare today is my EMO SHIT DAY! It will be a public holiday. =)
and yeah, sekali lagi aku tak laku. Siapalah aku ini.... knowing that, I guess I know where I stand. I'm just a sucker for love. No matter how hard I try, i will still fail. It's like climbing Mt. Everest, and when you thought you've reached the top, you start to fall back. And when you fall, you fall hard, damn hard till you're squashed like a tiny insect.
falling in love is like that. There two ways to end the love story. Either by the above mentioned way, or the other way is to finally placed the victory flag on the highest point of the mountain to mark the success. Well, for me, it's been the former for a fucking bloody long time.
and like what I've said before, making friends with you is a choice, but falling for you, I really had no choice. how i wish i can tell you this straight to your face but you might be reading this anyway. so no diff. and by that, i do not what to do now. to give up or to stay. if i follow my mind, i will give up, if i follow my heart, it will be otherwise, coz i noe that the heart never lies. my life was a mess before i know you and it changed for the better once i knew you, and it is slowly turning to be one of the best times of my life when i start to fall for you. but only god knows. Humans can only plan, it's God who decide.nevertheless, life is wonderful, live life to the fullest. jsut dont do stupid stuff that can take al those wonderfull things away. no matter how low i go tonight, i know i will climb back up to the top. but how long will i take to climb back up? it depends. really. depends on how fast i want to climb back up. This hole in in right now, is not deep enough, and I'm climbing up right now.
I'm stuck in a parallel world and no one else will believe me. you can thank all the stars you want in the universe, but i noe i will be that lucky one. but to who? i dont noe, how i wish i will be ur lucky star. coz my lucky star, it keeps burning out. and letting go is so hard.time is against me and all of you people. let's take this time to thank all our family members, friends and all for all the wonderful things they've done in our life. life is short. and we do not know when we will pass on and meet God.
If I ever were to meet with an accident, i only have this post for you and the rest to know what's inside me right now. People may say they know me quite well and understands me and all. well quite frankly that's bullshit. Coz only I will understand myself and nobody else will. Some may try but not all will succeed.
and one more thing....
You're a Pokemon, coz I choose you, Pikachu!laugh all you want at the last sentence but it made sense to me. =)
so guys, don't find me, I will find you. So see ya when I see ya! Goodbye!
haha, I think this will be my longest post ever. HAHA!
BACH 2, OUTZ!
